Remember this post? The one where I wrote that I had lost myself? That I didn’t know what to do with my life?You wonderful lot made some great suggestions.
I went away to a convention on the weekend. At the convention I meet some really friendly authors and picked up a book. Beneath the blurb on the back was this:
‘A discontent gnaws at me. I’m Geordie’s wife; I’m Josh and Robbie’s mother. I’m a half a woman and I don;t know where the rest of me has gone.’ It was an OMG moment. I spoke to the author and said: “This is me, this is my life. This is exactly how I feel!” So I bought the book. It is Dancing Backwards in High Heels by Christine Darcas.
So with those few lines and a book in hand, I think I have an inkling of my future.
I had been considering becoming an Special Teacher’s / Learning Assistant (STLA), working in a school and assisting the children with Special Needs. I enjoy doing guided reading with DD’s class. I enjoyed reading two years ago with the Year 5 and 6’s who were struggling. I was thrilled when a child said to me”I can read! I’m not dumb anymore.” I want to make a difference in people’s lives. But…I don’t know if I could do it full time. I have been told by a number of people that I would be good at it. Plus the hours would fit well, leaving time for the children and getting school holidays off. I don't know if that is my thing. Part of my dilemma was that I started wondering if I was only considering this because of the number of people who told me I would be good at it. These are people I respected: 5 people from Girl Child’s School including executive teachers.
And here is the other issue. Would I be falling into another career because I have an aptitude for it? Would my need to
help be useful drag me into a life where I wouldn't be able to disconnect and switch off? Would it then it would effect my family?
So, the epiphany I had this weekend was to rekindle my love and books and writing. The plan is to see if I can write by writing books reviews. I even have a name for a new blog where I could indulge this new idea. But first I figure I will try a couple and post them here to test the waters, so to speak.
So that’s the plan at the moment. Maybe this will be the something for me that I seem to need.
What do you think?