Remember this post? The one where I wrote that I had lost myself? That I didn’t know what to do with my life?You wonderful lot made some great suggestions.
I went away to a convention on the weekend. At the convention I meet some really friendly authors and picked up a book. Beneath the blurb on the back was this:
‘A discontent gnaws at me. I’m Geordie’s wife; I’m Josh and Robbie’s mother. I’m a half a woman and I don;t know where the rest of me has gone.’ It was an OMG moment. I spoke to the author and said: “This is me, this is my life. This is exactly how I feel!” So I bought the book. It is Dancing Backwards in High Heels by Christine Darcas.
So with those few lines and a book in hand, I think I have an inkling of my future.
I had been considering becoming an Special Teacher’s / Learning Assistant (STLA), working in a school and assisting the children with Special Needs. I enjoy doing guided reading with DD’s class. I enjoyed reading two years ago with the Year 5 and 6’s who were struggling. I was thrilled when a child said to me”I can read! I’m not dumb anymore.” I want to make a difference in people’s lives. But…I don’t know if I could do it full time. I have been told by a number of people that I would be good at it. Plus the hours would fit well, leaving time for the children and getting school holidays off. I don't know if that is my thing. Part of my dilemma was that I started wondering if I was only considering this because of the number of people who told me I would be good at it. These are people I respected: 5 people from Girl Child’s School including executive teachers.
And here is the other issue. Would I be falling into another career because I have an aptitude for it? Would my need to help be useful drag me into a life where I wouldn't be able to disconnect and switch off? Would it then it would effect my family?
So, the epiphany I had this weekend was to rekindle my love and books and writing. The plan is to see if I can write by writing books reviews. I even have a name for a new blog where I could indulge this new idea. But first I figure I will try a couple and post them here to test the waters, so to speak.
So that’s the plan at the moment. Maybe this will be the something for me that I seem to need.
What do you think?
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2 comments:
I think a lot of women feel this way sometimes. I know I do and have been struggling with it also. I think your plan sounds wonderful. Go for it!
Dearest E ...
You are writing about me! You actually are. You are writing about me.
As you know I like to write. I write children's books in the positive psychology genre ... to help give confidence, self esteem and power to children. Last year pursing this dream meant my business fell down quite a bit, so to earn some cash I worked in the school in learning support. I was working with the kids who were struggling with reading. I had the same kids for a full term. At the end of each term I had some incredible results not only in their reading, but in their self esteem and confidence. What I thought was a "job" I was doing to earn a bit of money while my real dream took off, was actually part of my end vision. To help as many children in the world as possible believe in their own power. And my dream to be published came to fruition in the background at the same time ... (plus during this process I discovered my own son's dyslexia which would have went undiagnosed for a long time had I not been working in learning support)
I personally think both of your endeavors are pointing to the one end result. Doing something in your chosen field of reading and writing while still fulfilling that need to make a positive difference in the world around you by helping teach kids to read and write.
Great epiphany. Huge woot woot!! Go for it!!!
I am off to find that book.
Hugs
L
Ps. Sorry I talk so much ...
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